Sleep Talking Man

Hey all,

Been a while since I posted anything, having a little bit of writers block.

But in lue of an awesome two days I've had, I felt the need to just blog a bit.

About three weeks ago some friends of mine and myself went to banff for a night and due to some heavy drinking I lost my keys. Not to worry though right? I have a spare set right? Why yes, yes I do... in my car...

So about a week or two went by with me ignoring my car situation until I had no choice to call a lock smith because my pass port was in my car as well... The company I called told me they could be there in 15 mins and they would charge me 35 and extra depending on how difficult the lock is. Fair enough. The man shows up and in literally less than a minute opens up my car door and charges me 110... Shocked, but in no mood to get into a confrontation and tell him " do you take cash?" "oh your paying cash, well than its cheeper... 100 dollars please" "wow... thank you."

Well got my spare keys, my car, pass port. All good right... Yep, unless you go ahead and lose your car keys three days later...

I did eventually find them nicely tucked underneath a friend of mines couch (no idea). Along with 60 dollars which is amazing. And all of these events unfolded due to one night... one night of drinking and from that one night of drinking one picture was taken that can some up this entire story, and really my life in general...

I DUNNO! I DUNNO!

Haha In other news, In about 19 days I will be off for a week to mexico, so look forward to some sweet blog updates and videos from that... And considering the people who I'll be going with, it just might be my last trip ever...

Other fun fact... For all you comic book lovers Comic Expo will be in Calgary April 27th to the 29th with guests such as the Great Stan Lee, The TNG cast, and James Masters and lots of other actors/artists! so make sure you get your tickets now while you can! Just click the Link.

Anyways! So I recently came across an old gem of a blog that I use to follow religiously. Why? because It's Fucking Hilarious!

Do yourselves a favor and check out this Blog,

Its basically an English couple in which the man has a ridiculous sleeping pattern and says some outrageous stuff in his sleep, the wife records which ones she can and the rest just writes down.

SLEEP TALKIN MAN

And lately it looks like she's been on a sloth tare so I figured I'd post this video for your enjoyment as well.

George Carlson Update.

"Dear Andrew

This morning somewhere in between when I woke up to go fly fishing and saw that my pet bird has somehow chewed through my rod, and me slipping on a puddle of urine that my cat (who clearly has no respect for me) left on the kitchen floor, I realized something. How or why you find any interest in my life is beyond me. My life is in shambles and I feel like the end is near. Please for the love of God do yourself a favour and stop writing to me and tell the people my story.

George."

hahahaha classic George.

-Chaps.

Not my day.

Where to begin,

I don't know how long I've been staring at this blank screen for now... Probably a few hours at least. While thoughts and Ideas of how to express myself come and and go through my head, the minute I look at the screen everything just disappears...

Breath...

When I 11 years old, I stole 100 dollars from my grandma and took it to school. All I want to do was just show it off to my friends, still it was wrong of me. When I brought It back home I was caught trying to sneak it back to where I found it. My grandma told me to I had to sit and wait till grandpa got home so I could tell him what I did. I was furious! What was I going to do with 100 dollars really? You could of given me a toonie back then and I would of been set for the year. I begged and pleaded my case that I was never going to spend it, but it didn't matter, and without thinking, like a little brat, I yelled at my grandma telling her she was overreacting and had that she wasn't my mother. As soon as those words flew out of my mouth you bet my hands were there to cover it. I looked at her, she looked back at me, I stood there wide eyed anticipating the backlash of what I had just said, only to see her turn around and just leave me standing there. I knew I had done wrong, so I went to her and told her I was so sorry about what I had said, she obviously forgave me but I was 11, just a child and had no idea of the true impact of my words.

An other time, Im ashamed to say told my mother that I hated her. I was in my teens, and the words just flew out of my mouth once again. She use to work nights back then, so I had all day at school then all night at home to think about it until she got home. Funny thing is I don't even remember what we were arguing or if we were even arguing at all. I just remember being furious at her and saying it straight to her face and then watching her slowly stand up and just walk out the door. When I got home that night I literally sat at the chair at the top of the steps looking down at the door all night until she got back. All the while thinking to myself what on earth I could possibly say to her to make it better. Obviously things were fine after I had apologized profusely! She is mother after all. But it doesn't excuse what I said to her, and it never will.

What Im trying to get it at is that through out our lives we will inevitably find ourselves in situations where we feel cheated, upset, heartbroken, lost etc. But what we have to accept is that anger or any emotion we feel as result of those feelings is perfectly acceptable to feel. We should never be upset with ourselves if we are angry ( something that i've always had a hard time to deal with ). But what isn't perfectly acceptable is when we let our emotions get the better of us. If we let that anger dictate our actions or in my case my words.

Im sad to say that yesterday was one of those days, but this time it wasn't a family member that i hurt with my words, it was someone who is very special to me, someone I would never want to hurt ever, but through my words I feel like I did. I was hurt, heartbroken, and angry, and still am, but the issue here is that I let those emotions get the better of me, and while I never used the words hate or your not my "family/friend etc.", I was very short, very rude, and childish, and can't help but feel like I hurt them... I've had the unbearable privilege (due to my being bed ridden because of my injury) to have lay here for the last two days and re-live it over and over. Though I got my main points across to this person, (and am sticking to them), if in the process of expressing myself I did if in fact hurt them, in any way (which im positive I did.) I just hope they read this and know that words can not express how truly sorry I am for how I acted. It wasn't my day, but that is no excuse... It should of never been like that, and like the rest of my stories, will forever be a reminder to me of how we should and shouldn't treat people... I'm so sorry.

Let this go as a lesson for everyone, that words hurt. We have to be responsible for our actions and we have teach ourselves to control our emotions. Angry or not the second we let our emotions get the better of us, is when we have the potential to do or say things that we never in a million years would think we would ever do, or even said we would never do. And even if the damage is done, we need to pick ourselves up and do the right thing and apologize, no matter how hard it can be.

Thank you all for listening, talk to you all soon.

Andrew.

There was nothing to hold him back except himself.

Hey all,

Before I get started I want to share a snippet from an episode of south park called "Raisins" Season 7 Episode 14. Since first seeing this episode, this part has always stuck with me. Every time I find myself in a situation similar to the one I'm in now I draw from this and it makes me feel a little better. And it just goes to prove that Butters is by far the best south park character there is.

Goth Kid 2 - Yeah, we're gonna go to the graveyard and write poems about death and how pointless life is.

Butters - Uh, uhm no thanks. I love life.

Stan - Huh? but you just got dumped.

Butters - Well yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that something could make me feel that sad. It's, it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt something really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feeling is a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid.

So without getting into to much detail, today was a pretty rough day for me. I did what was honestly the last thing I ever wanted to do. I had to let go of someone I love even though In love is exactly what I still am with them. It gave me no satisfaction and to be honest hasn't made things easier on me. But to add another quote..."If you have chemistry you only need one other thing, timing. But timings a bitch" ( ill let you figure out where i got this one

No one ever likes making these types of decisions, they're not easy and they're not fun. Whats worst about them is that deep down inside, we know they're right. While I do agree that we need to take the good with the bad, it should never be at the same time. Love might be hard to find but, "One is loved because one is Loved. No reason is needed for loving."- The Alchemist. And while we did love each other it just couldn't happen, not now.

I had just recently read the Alchemist, Its a pretty quick read (I read it in one sitting) but I absolutely loved it. It's about a Shepherd that sets out on to find his treasure by fulfilling his personal legend ( life's dream if you will ). It recounts his journeys and the lessons he learns along the way up until the very end. He then finally understands that, the true meaning of his personal legend was not to find the treasure, but to understand the personal legend itself. Only then would he find his treasure.

The one thing I noted was that every time someone realized which book it was that I was reading they all came up to me and told me basically the same thing. "Thats a great read. Its quick and has a good story to it, but you can also draw so much from it... if you need to." Even though I heard what they all had to say, until now, up until this very day, I had never truly understood it. But I think I have now, for my part anyways.

Love is strong and powerful, but as amazing as it is, it comes with its good and it comes with its bad (as butters so elegantly put =) ). But what love should never do is stop us from living our lives ( our personal legends). She new that, and even though I could tell she knew, i just wouldn't listen to her or myself... until i finally clued in and made the decision to let her go, which was horrible, hardest thing I've ever had to do. I don't want to bullshit you all and make you think that I'm okay, because I'm not. Im heartbroken and devastated. But I do think I'm a stronger person for it, and I think shed agree.

Whats good about my situation; the good that has come with the bad, is that I think I'm ready to start living my life, Its opened my eyes. Being with her made me want to be a better person, I never knew how happy I could be until I was with her. And I love her for it, and always will. Maybe that happiness she gives me is my treasure, (maybe not, who knows) But its not about the treasure, its about getting there, Its about making those hard decisions, and living life to its fullest. which is what I plan to do. So yea, you know what I'm gonna mope around for a few days, feel sorry for myself (not gonna lie) but after wards I'm gonna pick myself up and start getting on with my life. And maybe someday Ill find that treasure because "wherever your heart is, there you will find your treasure."

I really do appreciate anyone who decides to sit and read my blogs. Over the next few weeks I have off, i;m really gonna try and organize it a little better so that its not just me spilling everything about my life. Try and make it little more fun. But still as always, be a place were people can come see that they aren't alone. Thanks

Take care all!

Flip me Right side up!

Hey there,

So its been a while since I wrote anything, I haven't been able to sleep all night, as a continuation of my strange inability to sleep for more than 2-3 hours straight. ( Why yes! it is as fun as it sounds =) ).

Anywho, I decided to watch a movie to help pass the time, but could not for the life of me decide which movie it was going to be. So I just grabbed my giant binder full of my movies, through it on the coffee table and flipped it to a random page and grabbed the first movie I felt. The winner being Dan in Real Life, staring none other than Steve Carell.

Now you might be noticing that my slogan changed from "fill yourself with my nonsense", to" It's andrew in real life". Well yes this movie title was a direct influence on that, and I'm not going to deny it! But also I thought the old one sounded kinda dirty and I've been trying to figure out something to replace it with. YIKES, I digress. I really enjoyed this movie, I had never seen it before! You might be thinking, why do you own a movie you haven't seen before? WELLLLLLLLLLLL MISTER.. or Misses?, It's because someone told me it was good, and I decided to believe them. (just my nature I guess). I guess I just never found the time to get around to it, or just really wasn't interested. But after watching this movie I gotta say I was pretty surprised (In a good way).

I'm not going to go into to much detail of the movie, I don't really do reviews and plus I don't want to spoil it, but Its a love interest / Family coming together movie. Now wether it's because it was exactly the type of movie I needed to see (which was creepy), or just because its good (I think it is), or maybe both (I DONT KNOW) I just really enjoyed it, and yea it can be a little cheesy and corny at times as your about to see...

but if you ever find yourself staring a ceiling in the middle of the night for more than an hour and have two more to kill... Throw it on and give it a watch =)

I was in a pretty grouchy mood last night, work just playing its mind games with me I suppose. But I am now feeling 10 times better and am ready to try to get some sleep before work at 5! Its a big day tomorrow... or now. haha

Have a gooder all!

GCU

He's the one that told me about this movie... I'm not suppose to tell you that.

A touch up

Well its about 730 am, I've been up since 1 am, tossing and turning, so I figured i'd try and do something productive. Thought I'd play around with the design a bit, and i gotta say, I kinda like it! If you don't... well... I've got nothing for you...

Shut up :)

I'm gonna try and make a post now.

love Chappell

You're never alone.

Well, once again its been much to long since I've found the time to write on here.

Sorry... Not to my surprise the very first sentence I find myself writing is a total lie... I've had plenty of time to write on here, the truth is I just haven't wanted to. I don't know why, maybe its because I haven't had anything exciting to write about? No, not thats not it. Plenty has happened since I've recovered from the first part of my knee rehabilitation. Is it because I can't find anything to vent about? Believe me, by the time you're done reading this you'll find that to be a ridiculous question to ask.

I feel as though I've come back because something of significance in my life has occurred, a lot actually. It's new, wonderful and so scary, all at the same time.

Let me just start by saying that I have great friends, that's no understatement. I have the pleasure of living in a house with 5 other people, two of which have been here since the beginning with me, almost four years now. I've seen 5 others come and go and there has never been a moment with either of those people where I haven't felt grateful to have spent that time with them. Outside of my house I have met plenty of amazing people through them, and through them come to appreciate meeting everyone I have. But that doesn't change the fact that I'm still and always will be a man of few words.

Out of everyone who I've met and of those who has taken the time to get to know me, I hope they understand that they can confide in me. Know that I will try and help them out how ever I can. Yes I do get a little awkward around people who are crying and who are hurt, but its only because in my head Im only struggling to find those perfect words for them, true and simple words. I find a comfort in simply sitting their and listening to what they have to say. Whether its someone who is talking about a guilty pleasure such as a TV show they love to watch, or someone who has had a bad week and just wants to cuss and yell to get everything out. I've always believed people deserve to be listened too.

Of all the people I've met, I only know a handful of them who would willfully sit their and listen to what I have to say, I hope they know who they are and understand that I know If ever I receive no reply from them, I know it's not because they have nothing to say, its because they have everything to say, but just can't find those right words. In a way while I write this, for all of you to see and read, I know plenty of you could really care less, many of you might laugh or sigh and skip to the next page. But some of you might feel the same I do, or just simply understand what I'm trying to get at. Knowing that you are out their makes me feel so much better, because you are asking yourself when is the last time you have truly felt as though your are being listened to, not heard but listened to. That feeling of undivided attention when you truly need it. And maybe while reading this you find some comfort of your own.

I don't want to sound as though I'm an attention seeking maniac, which I feel as thought this might be how I'm coming across. (I really am not :) ) I just want people to understand that if and when the time comes that you need someone to listen to, will I find you? Will you find me? Or someone? Anyone? How many of us can keep listening to the same CD, watch the same movie or read the same book over and over for comfort before we just break down? I may not understand what you are going through, or you me, but at the end of the day to be listened to is what we all want. I hope you all know you aren't alone, ever.

Okay okay, not my normal type of blog, I understand that, but sometimes a person just needs to get things out, and let them be known. I hope you can all understand that, and Hopefully my other blogs will be a little on the lighter side. Ha! we'll see.